Adventures of human being
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There was one big difference between them and us. They wore neatly tailored hide clothes, had roasts on Sundays, loved their children and didn’t want to die. The men grew beards, and their hair hung low on their shoulders, but their bodies were as hairless as mine, though harder. There was shrill, bleak tundra rather than the dense forest that came when the last ice gave up. But it wasn’t so silly to join it 40,000 years ago, when humans, with bodies and brains as modern as yours and mine (just better), lived in caves and shelters in Derbyshire. It would have been just silly to join our story when the family were sponges in the sea off modern Madagascar, or shrews scuttling between the legs of London triceratops. Our start was a mathematical convulsion that became an explosion – an explosion that never happened in time because time hadn’t started, and that happened nowhere because space hadn’t been invented. What I had to do was to start as near the beginning of my story (and your story) as I could: to walk the step, to meet the family, to feel the forces that made me the shape I am. But then, prompted by nothing obvious, it swelled until it filled my head, and I knew I had to do something about it. The whirr of the busy-ness made it possible to ignore the tinnitus, except in the early hours of the morning, or in the few frightening moments when I was alone.
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I got on with travelling and killing and reproducing and speechifying and trying to persuade, and, dangerously, I sometimes even persuaded myself. The dissonance became an irritating but not particularly intrusive tinnitus. The following week I was back in court, wondering aloud about the relevance of an eighteenth-century case to a twentieth-century paediatrician, deafened by the dissonance between the different modes of my life, wondering what sort of thing I was, where I’d come from and what the hell I was going to do about whatever the answers turned out to be.Īnd then, of course, I did nothing about it for years. It was very fine Burgundy that night, and a beautiful woman sang some Schubert lieder at the piano afterwards. There was still blood on my face when I got back to the house. The end of a tube nipped my tongue and squeezed blood into my mouth.
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It had been pushed down thousands of times a day by a bellows full of salt air from the Outer Isles. One surface was elegantly domed where it had pressed against the diaphragm. What was I expected to do? Jimmy cut out another piece and started to chew it, so I chewed on my piece too. Jimmy hacked out a piece of liver and handed it to me. The guts uncoiled and steamed like hot snakes. The stalker, Jimmy, took a knife from his belt, stuck it in the belly and ripped it open. His brain was electrically dead, and his heart had stopped, but most of the cells in his body were still alive. He coughed and staggered off towards the sea, but he wasn’t going far. I raised my head, pushed off the safety catch and squeezed. The stag knew something was wrong, stood up, sniffed and gathered his hind legs under him to take off. I couldn’t go any further, but if the stag didn’t move there was no way I could get a killing shot.Ī raven gave me away. I crawled up a burn, with water coming in at my neck and out at my socks, and lay behind a stone for a couple of hours. The wind ricocheted off the rocks, and I hoped I was high enough to stop my scent bouncing down to him. At last I saw a big enough stag and said, ‘He’s mine.’ He was in a hollow just below the crest of the hill, and it was the devil of a job to get up to him. Then I’d rattled on the sleeper up to Scotland, drinking Chianti, been disgorged at a Highland station, driven in a Land rover to a big country house, made to shoot at a picture of a charging Russian and released onto the hill in a tweed suit.įor six hours I tramped, scanned and crept. I first ate a live mammal on a Scottish hill.Ī couple of days earlier I’d been standing in a Victorian court in central London wearing a horsehair wig, a stiff wing collar, starched bands and a black gown, arguing about how much a damaged uterus was worth. ‘Reports concerning peoples from parts of native America, Europe, Africa, and Asia show them to be almost unanimous in prohibiting the telling of sacred stories in summer or in daylight, except on certain special occasions.’Īlwyn Rees and Brinley Rees, Celtic Heritage: Ancient Tradition in Ireland and Wales All the creatures that we have to kill and eat, all those that we have to strike down and destroy to make clothes for ourselves, have souls, souls that do not perish with the body and which must therefore be lest they should revenge themselves on us for taking away their bodies.’ ‘The greatest peril of life lies in the fact that human food consists entirely of souls. ‘I’m always trying to do what dead people tell me